I lost a family member

Today i lost a family member ... my grandma to be exact. she was very kind and close to my heart. I have grown up around her all my life ever since i was a little boy  and it is strange to get a phone call from your father saying that she had passed away... Sadly i was a crying mess in the middle of my dorm but my friends helped me and stood by me all the time. 
It is sad and i am actually pretty drunk ,now makes it easier. I really have no idea why i am sharing this with giant bomb but i just felt like i had to throw my thought out some were. I am still having a hard time believing this