Well, it’s been a while since I’ve been here on Giant bomb to post anything, and I’m glad to be back for a little while. For those who don’t know me and to remind those who do, my father died on March 31 of this year of metastatic renal cell cancer that started in his kidney. The cancer worked its way up to his bladder, and then it hit his bones and lastly his lungs. He also dehydrated to death, and it was a really terrifying sight to see. Ever since then, I’ve had a mental breakdown and haven’t fully recovered; however, I’m making steps to try to have a better future, and I have found my reason for having a life worth living.

Ever since my dad passed away, my mom and I decided that our house was far too much for us to handle and that jobs were quickly dying in the area, so we moved to Tennessee. The move to was a good experience; however, there were mistakes that were made, with only some mistakes corrected. I’ve never had to deal with an unsafe neighborhood, so there has to be a gun in every room. I do not like that at all, and that would be an example of a mistake that cannot be fixed till we can move again... which will be either 10 years to never. I do still continue to be lonely, as there is no family or friends at my new residence. There was family at my old VA home, but they hardly visited. It’s very different here in my new home, but it’s peaceful. Hopefully one day we’ll get a friend that will like us for who we are, especially my mom as she had friends that were left behind. I come to the point were I want my mom to be happy, and I don’t care if I’ll never have any more friends. It’s hard for me anymore to believe that there is such a thing as friends.

I will not be graduating college in December, and my graduation is being moved to May of 2013. I needed 3 more credits that I didn’t know about, so I have to make up for it.

Anyways, I’m starting to slowly earn my freedom by learning how to drive! To motivate me, my mother gave me a car to pay on. It’s a used blue 2009 Nissan Versa, and I have to say that I very much like the vehicle and fortunate to have such a good mom. What fascinates me is that no keys are required to be inserted in the vehicle! The keys only just have to stay in your pocket, and it’s wild! I thanked her repeatedly for the wonderful gift. In return, I saved up enough money to get her a beautiful blue diamond necklace with a pair of earrings from Kay Jewelers. She had the biggest smile on her face, and yet she fussed at me too for spending money. I don’t care though as she was worth it. (She isn’t complaining too much.) I do wish my dad was around to see what mom did for me, and what I did for her too. Luckily, I found a picture of what I got her.

In the past, I admit that I have felt sorry for myself, and I believe that it dominantly showed in my blogs and whatnot in that past. I don’t do that anymore as I have changed, and that I do know now that everyone is fortunate in their own way. We also struggle in our own way, but we have to get through it, and sometimes it’s good to get that burden released by talking about it... instead of just holding it all in. I guess that I’m finally taking the steps of what it takes to be a responsible adult by realizing what I need to do to survive, keep positive, and actually attempt to think for once. At times, I wish that I could have kept the innocence and be childlike at heart, but I don’t have that privilege anymore.

Game wise, I’ve been playing New Super Mario Bros. 2 here and there. I’ve been wanting to play some Sonic Colors, but I never can find the right time to play. I won’t be getting a WiiU, as I believe that the Wii is my last video game system for enjoyment. Explanation: I’ll be getting a career next year, and there won't be time for anything. Video games will be what I’ll miss the most…

Anime wise, I’ve watched nothing new. I continue to listen to Clannad’s ost though.

That concludes this blog. I miss talking to my friends here, and hopefully I’ll have to time to do so. Thanks for reading, and until next time,

Tyler

Edit: Come and read my second blog if you're interested!