Lately I feel as if I should be based out of London, not just as a designer but as a person too. The creativity just seems so much more free flowing over there and everyone knows each other. Plus I feel like those are my people like they know where I'm coming from ya know?

Maybe it's just cause my dad is European.

It's 2:30 and I'm doing everything I can to avoid going to bed, my girlfriend is asleep in the other room. It's not like I'm tired anyway, I could stay up all night if I wanted to but the fact of the matter that I've had to deal with attitude and saying the wrong things has lead me to not want to go in there, willingly of course. I tend to leave the dashboard open and online but I'm not playing anything due to my games being in the other room. It's whatever, Halo would only frustrate me anyway.

It's my fault that I'm unhappy But I'll do what I can. Sitting here in the dark isnt good for my eyes and I really should stop but I'm coming up with ways to improve my youtube channel, a talk show perhaps?

Fuck it I'll just pass out on the couch...

"Dear Celia,

I don’t know your last name. And I don’t know where you live. But I know you have two young boys - twins I believe. And I know you didn’t have a flash forward. I understand how terrifying that is; how powerless you must be feeling. I want you to know that you are not alone. And your situation is not as hopeless as you think. Our paths were meant to cross. I didn’t know how. I didn’t know when. But things have changed now. Things are no longer going to unfold as I had feared. My gift to you is release from that dread. From the feeling that you’re no longer in control. We will never meet. I will never know you. So live your life. Live everyday and know that the future is unwritten. Make the most of it."

Probably the strongest episode. Probably the most emotional episode.

Man, I really hate when shows I like get cancelled :(

I don't mind, I don't mind that she sleeps next to me on the couch while I play Uncharted 2.

I just wish she was awake for it =)

I know I'm only 5 chapters in (out of a total of 6) but Alan Wake is getting weird.  I'm towards the end and it's just confusing, parts of the story make sense but most of it is still really vague and confusing.... I get the jist of the story but it's the details that matter!  I stopped reading the manuscript pages because I was told too due to possible spoilers in the story, maybe those will help?

Hopefully this will all make sense in the end...
 
Finished Alan Wake and it was actually really good. I was able to get all the DLC on sale too, so I will definitely be playing it soon.  
I highly recommend Alan Wake to anyone.

So I've been in a so called "committed" relationship the past few months or so now and it's funny, just the way things are happening. I don't feel any different, It's like I am in a relationship and like I am not at the same time. It's nice though, being able to have someone to talk too that's an easy listener, that's not your parents or your friends whom have really bad opinions on things.
    I don't know man, this update isn't going to fill in much considering the fact.  It's just nice, is all I'm saying, to finally be able to  "cope" and figure things out. I was in a weird place spiritually the past few weeks due to an odd transition period regarding my schooling and  where I want to go in the two years, but that seems to be over for now. 
 
I've been having self-realizations as well and they have been quite helpful lately to say the least. I guess that's a symbol of me getting older(in the good kind of way) and a symbol of things slowly starting to make sense....?

I haven't posted in a while. So here's to the new year. 
 
Not much has happened. Holiday was good, I go back to finishing my schooling soon which is a bummer but at least it's getting done. The time I've been having off has been nice though it's allowed to catch up on some much needed sleep, and sitting around having to have nothing planned has been lovely I will admit. 
    Sadly though, I wasn't able to play as many of the games I wanted to this year but that's due to the fact that I'm broke and that my studies seemed to always get the better of me. still important none the less. So due to that I do not a personal Game Of The Year, but if I had to pick I would probably pick Halo Reach. My love of Science Fiction always seems to get the best of me and the story of Halo is quite outstanding, now even though I didnt finish Halo Reach (I know I know) the parts that I did play through
were really well done and the consistancy of the story keep me going. The immersion, The characters, The drama was all there. thats all I needed. Ohye! did I mention the multiplayer? 
 
Yes well any-hoo the Holidays were good, small and more family oriented which Ive seemed to grown acustomed to, It's helped me appreciate some of the things about families both good and bad. I was also able to spend a lot of time with Dad this year which is nice since we've been sort of distent lately. His brother and niece came into town from Eastern Europe they spent Christmas with us.....
 
Got into a car accident this year also, recently actually, about 3 months ago. That sucked ass. So I wont be driving for a while due-to, lets say "lack of funds", and a court date. Did see Tron Legacy finally though, awesome movie, got way more into than I thought? especially with the story. Kudos to Daft Punk as well.
 
 I think that's about going to do it for me tonight, its about 2 a.m. here my time. 
This post got some what bland toward the end and I apologize. If I do remember anything more I will be sure edit them in.
 
   Cio.
 
P.S. 
  Oh also, my top 3 albums of the year would have to be Maroon 5:Hands All Over, Cee-lo Green:The lady killer, and Ozzy Osbourne: Scream.
...Yeah, I like Ozzy.
 
See ya. = )

 

I have these thoughts, ideas mostly that are running around in my head, it's like I'm being haunted by little gray aliens.
    Most of the ideas are great, some though are stupid. But the great ones....I feel like people just wont give me the time of day.
They're all brilliant ideas, in concept and on paper. For movies or games...The things that are important to me. 
One's that are fresh and new, that developer 's and the like haven't come up with...yet.
 
I really should write these down. Maybe then someone actually will give me the time of day. And maybe then I can remember them too.
*sigh* It's like noone understands my genius?

I realized tonight. after watching the same movie listed below, that sex scenes in movies are awkward and make me kind of uncomfortable....

So I went to see George Clooney's latest cinematic adventure today. It was interesting to watch because it had a unique sense of style to it. 
...But as I'm sitting there watching this one particular scene this idea pops into my head. Nothing regarding the movie, but something regarding the subject matter.
I get an idea for a game, and this being a video gaming website I thought I would share it with you. 
 
The idea that came to me was that of a First Person Spy RPG. Something like Alpha Protocol meets Mirrors Edge.
Mirrors Edge in the sense of it being First Person and almost having a futuristic feel to it. While Alpha Protocol has all the spy necessities mixed with the immersion and some RPG elements.
 
Soo yes a First Person Spy RPG.  Sounds interesting right?
Maybe I'll take this idea and run with it. Come up with a few concept ideas, story arch's, set pieces and the like.