I've contemplated the implications as to why I find Dota so addicting that I come back to it like an abused spouse over and over. There's the obvious harmful truths, like the fact you don't have control over the other 9 players on your team, so queuing for a game feels like rolling a 100-sided die. There's the things that have become fact for me, like queuing for a ranked match is akin to deleting an hour or three from my day, because if you lose there's no way you'll stop playing, and if you win there's no way you'll stop trying to win. And there's a lot of relationships I've made a hell of a lot more complicated for the fact that I play Dota.
And then there's the troubling reality behind why you keep playing. That its dopamine drip of leveling up, getting powerful, and crushing your opponents makes it so easy to forget about all the troubles of the day, because Dota is such a troubling experience by itself that it becomes all-consuming. Because the investment is too great, and even though you knew from the outset that the returns would be nothing, you keep trying because to stop now would end a veritable chapter of your life.
but then, those rare occasions where you band together with friends or strangers and work with such synchronicity to overcome such overwhelming odds that it leaves you smiling like an idiot. When you and a friend connect on a level that wouldn't be accessible otherwise. When mechanics clash and wielding that mountain of knowledge accrued over years of dedication to discern the truth and make the right move feels so good. It's like a painter making a right stroke on a canvas, the one that ties it all together, and it suddenly affirms all your hard work. It's the very definition of the recently minted phrase (bestowed on the absolute wrong game) "hobby-grade game". It's something that, despite being a very hard thing to do, and despite having more bad moments than good, still feels worth doing.
I feel like that nagging question of what else could I be doing with my life is answered within that. I could be painting in the garage, or joining a local team, or maybe try my hand at woodworking, but while these things are closer to the broadly held conception of something "worthwhile", it's a brave new world with new ways of spending your life. I think most people who play video-games can relate to that idea. I'm sure virtually every person in this forum has at least one experience of someone disliking their love of games, and trying to hold their love of some other thing as morally superior. At the end of the day, we all just want to find something fulfilling. Dota may be a perfect artifice crafted to make me think I'm being fulfilled, but even then I can't help but admire the craftsmanship.
There is absolutely a dark-side to it that most other hobbies don't come attached with. You subject yourself to the potential awfulness and negativity of internet strangers virtually every time you click the play button. But there are still plenty of good, friendly people in the game who resist being overwhelmed by the negative attitude surrounding the game. I'll admit I'm not always one of those people, but then I just put the game down, leave it for a month or two, and then when the itch comes back I play with a friend or two who I know I can count on to have a good time with.
@thatonedudenick: Sorry I didn't catch you earlier - we did play on Saturday. Did you buy in?
@mexicanhatboy You're welcome to join late, but it's obviously best to get in from the start to get the full context of what you're doing. It'd be a good idea to ask your squad leader what's happening if you join in late.
We usually aim for roughly an hour - quite short as far as these things go.
@iron1c: @jnal: @bollard: Was great to have you guys play, although I feel the mission didn't turn out like I'd hoped. Sorry about the long preamble as well - we haven't had an issue in months and got complacent, haha.
Hi peoples, I just joined the steam group. I've been a fan of arma for a few years now, but I always felt I was missing out by not having a bigger group of people to play with. Until now I've just did small coop stuff with friends or jumped into random games.
I'm in the middle of my final exams at Uni, but I look forward to joining in with the group in another few weeks. I'm especially keen to see what people do with this Zeus stuff.
Good luck on your exams man, looking forward to playing with you!
OMG I'm totally interested. Give me a reason to play this game cuz those altis life servers are fucking stupid.
is there a way to subscribe to updates from the group? so I know when stuff is going down?
If you happen to be online when we post notifications it'll pop up. Unfortunately you're just gonna have to check yourself otherwise, but we do our best to keep things at the same time each week anyway, so barring complications we will always be playing Arma at 3pm EST on Saturdays.
@subjugation: The game is quite stable now comparing to both the Beta and the Alpha, and a hell of a lot of features have been added too. Zeus is fantastic for one.
We don't use ACE - it still doesn't exist for Arma 3. There was a couple pretty poor ACRE releases but now the big thing for radio is Task Force Radio, which we do use. Which reminds me, I should edit my original post with that fact!
I own ArmA 3 since the early access release but always lacked a group of people to play with and have absolutely no experience (played the first episode of the campaign, I guess?) but this sounds interesting and is at a time I could easily attend (thank you for choosing a EU friendly time as well!). I've watched some of the stream and for example have no idea how the channel stuff on the radio etc. etc. works but I'd be into learning some ArmA. I've joined the Steam group and if I'm not too anxious too join because I'm scared I will fuck everything up, I might give it a go!
Nah there's no chance you can fuck everything up, so don't sweat that. The game has quite the reputation for being some sort of incredibly complicated experience, but I don't think it's really that hard. I think just about anyone can pick it up fairly easily. We can help you with the radio and anything else you're not sure about.
@thurbleton and @darksaw who are the two mainly featured in that stream are quite experienced so it may give the image that we're super hardcore, but the other squad in that particular session has significantly less time with the series, so you'll be in good company in learning.