I'm looking at my game catalog and it's getting to the point where I'm wondering "why am I buying all of these?" It's so hard to explain. Co-workers and friends tell me "pick this up" or " buy this game, it's bad ass". The sad part is that this is the only thing that peer pressure easily takes over me. I have over 100 titles on PC, over 50 titles on PS2, over 20 on PS3, over 40 on Xbox 360, and so on. Most of them I get used at Gamestop, swap meets, or friends. Some of these games I haven't even popped in to my system. 
 
Now I can go the way of over weight people or alcoholics and blame the companies for the temptation, but I'm not that kind of person. My actions are my responsibilities. Almost everyday I think about or I do walk into Gamestop and browse their used section. Half the time leaving empty handed. Everyday I browse through the App store just to look for a game that can occupy my time just for a few minutes. At this point I have 6 pages on my iPhone full of games either purchased or free.  
 
What am I trying to accomplish? What kind of road am I following? That's just the thing. I...don't...know. I'm not a game journalist, there's no reason for me to have a pile of shame. Am I trying to beat a world record. I don't think that's possible for me. Some of the games I want I can't find. Is it the trophy's or achievements? Nope, I only have 2 platinum trophies and 1 S-rank. Is it the popularity in the leaderboards? Yeah right. I've reached rank 40 on MW2 and haven't played since. 
 
Maybe it's the fact that I want to enjoy the same experience as everyone else. Maybe I want something to talk about to everyone instead of being the loner in the corner. It gets to me sometimes that I can never find out what problem I'm running into now. So many things run into my head. On top of other situations. I'm kicking a family member out of my house and I have a child on the way. If this is an addiction I need to get it under control. Or else I'm gonna be like some other fathers, giving my entire pay check to child support while living in a shack. And then definitely I won't have any video games to play.