This is my life as it stands,

I need a job. I am in love. I am happy, but I have no money.

Ive spent so much of my life believing that I would eventually commit suicide because I was so unhappy. But I'm not unhappy. I'm so happy it confounds me. I don't know what do to with myself. I wish I could actually work out the money side of my life so that I could get my own house and start a family. I'm in love with an amazing girl, but at the same time I feel naive and stupid. Like its not yet my time to be happy. maybe I have been brain washed by too many romantic comedies or something. I feel like I am still a stupid kid. I'm 23, by the way. I feel like I'm in one of those bad movies where the nerd falls in love with the hot girl at the end.

I just want to ride this high for the rest of my life.

and in the end I feel like anyone in "love" would say the same.

Also, I'm drunk and will probably regret having written this tomorrow.