Well i am a bit behind on posting about this, but i have been having a real hard time accepting it as reality.

Ryan Davis has passed away, and that is ok, people die. But it hurts, for the last few weeks i haven't been able to even go to giantbomb. Tears would just swell up in my eyes, without Ryan its just not the same.

About 10 years ago i came across Gamespot, my brother recommended it to me when i asked about a good site for game reviews and news. After some time i discovered they did shows, by then it didnt take long before i came to love Ryan.

For a long time i have been dealing with depression and social anxiety. but when i saw or heard Ryan joke around it would make me smile. His laugh and giggle always make me laugh with him.

I am not the kind of guy that wants to meet a lot of celebrities, but the giant bomb crew is on my list of people i want to meet. But now that Ryan is gone, it feels like i have lost a chance to meet someone i considered important to me. I think its weird but it feels like i lost a good friend. After listening to the podcast and watching the videos of Ryan, i can see that the guys are having a though time as well. But they are coping, it shows that the show must go on. So i will keep coming back, it hurts but i wipe my tears, Ryan you will never be forgotten.

PS: Sorry for being a terrible writer.