Personal stuff #3

By Valkyr November 18, 2010 4 Comments

Dad's surgery

*Warning*: I know this is a gaming site and my story is very sad so if you don't want to read it or think that it is very inappropiate I apologize in advance
 
They came to his room just in time to take him to the surgery room, he and us broke into tears as he was being placed on the stretcher and taken away to the unknown. We waited patiently from 12:00 to 19:00pm (the amount of time it was ment to last) till we started worrying, one of the recepcionists called someone and found out that they were still working on him and that the surgery will last 3 more hours. 
The main dude came out at 22:15 and speaked to my mom, one of her cousins and me, the surgery was a 'success' but they almost didn't do nothing because they found out that the state of the cancer was a little advanced to qualify for this operation, anyway they discussed for some time after checking some more and decided to do it. He also confirmed us that the tumor was bad and that we will have to wait at least 72 hours to be sure that no bleeding or anything bad could happen, there are some serious changes like the connection from the stomach directly to the small intestine (after removing the duodene that it's the real connector), the removal of the head of the pancreas and more.
The sad thing is that they let my mom talk to him when he was settled on his new room (at intensive care) and he was already awake, one of his first questions was "Do I have cancer?" (he only knew he had a tumor but he never really heared that word) and my mom was strong enough not to explode in tears and lied to him saying that some tests using the extracted material are still to be done, it was too soon to give him the bad 'news', we decided that first he should be relaxed at least the first 72 hours then we'llsee how we tell him. Thank god he didn't ask me, I would have exploded really bad revealing the truth
We still have to discuss with the doctors about the post-surgery treatment but I already know that after this point the average life expectancy is 10-12 months, only 15% are alive after 5 years that the initial tumor is removed.
 
This is like a nightmare to us, in 25 years he barely had a cold and now one from week to the other we know that he has very little time to live, I have to be strong to support my mom because I'm her only son and both my dad and her have no siblings but I really feel dead inside, I didn't event fully recovered after I lost my fiancee 3 years ago when she went on vacation with her mom and never came back (he had a Muslim family that made her settle in the Lebanon and get married to a cousin), the success at university since she left and my passion for gaming was the only thing that prevented me from going nuts but now my whole world is tearing apart again. 
 
Thanks for reading, my next blog entry will be only about gaming I promise

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