Fatbomb: Follow Your Bliss

Amid a maelstrom of painful tears and uneasy chuckles, the cold shock of loss and hot stab of anger. Heavy grief hanging in the gut, warm memories of better days gone by, played over and over inside the mind’s eye. I’ve not been alone in feeling these emotions, I'm but one among the many thousands of people who've been expressing their thoughts and feelings online, huddled masses yearning to breathe free once again, to feel the weight of death finally lifted from atop our shoulders. That day will come, sooner or later, depending upon the person. My thoughts are with those closest to Ryan's memory, as well as everyone with the heart to mourn his passing; even from the distance that this digital world inherently brings to the relationships founded within it. It's been a sight for sore eyes to see this many humans come together for such a singular cause, because of and using this crazy silly thing called the Internet.

As has seemed fitting to most of those who visit this grand website that Ryan helped to carve from out of the perilous cliffs of the World Wide Web, a small offering of one’s thoughts on the tragic events of July 3rd, 2013 feels like a thing you just have to do. This is me trying to do that. I'm just sorry I'm so shitty at it.

What follows is a very short movie film that I made to say thanks to the man whose untimely death has inspired me to stop being quite so much of a pussy. To give things a go if I’ve a means and an end to do so. Go with what feels good, and if it turns out as less than you wanted it to be...do it better again next time. I sincerely hope I don’t have to make a video like this again for a very, very long time.

Yes. The shirt I’m wearing in the above video is a large. Yes. I’m only a small. That’s why I look (even) weirder/lamer than you might very well have expected. Speaking of shirts, I do have to give mad sick props to @alistercat for very recently sending me three shirts that I did not yet have as part of my collection. One of which I'm wearing in the above thing. And yes, I use the word collection because out of the six Giant Bomb shirts that I now own, only two are in my size. I still buy them just because I like 'em, even knowing that I’ll never ever wear them under normal circumstances. Thanks Giant Bomb, you've Steam Sale-ified t-shirts for me.

The banner I created for my Guide to the Steam Summer Sale 2012

The podcast which he mightily hosted these past years was probably the avenue by which his influence was felt by most of us in the world. The sheer amount of hours he (and the rest of the crew) put in, the regularity, the professionalism (he did silliness very professionally), the joviality and camaraderie on display was always a pleasure to listen to. I don't think it would be too grandiose a claim to call Ryan one of the finest men to sit down in front of a microphone and talk into it. I must just say though, you guys damn near broke my heart in two with your most recent episode. I think, in general, Ryan wanted people to have as much fun as he did, for as much of the time as possible.

Video Thing

This too? Yeah, some of this too...

Would you duders watch me play Sid Meier's Civilization V and it's two expansion packs (Gods & Kings + the hot 'n' fresh Brave New World) for at least 12 hours? Civ V was deemed to be a five star game by Ryan, and I'm inclined to agree with him. Therefore, I put it to you that I'd like to conquer the known lands of Civ V in his name, bringing his funky fresh brand lifestyle to the hip new demographic of uncultured peons of the ancient world. If you'd like to watch, chat, vote, donate (to a charity/concern of some sort, precise details TBA) and Skype with me this Friday/Saturday/Sunday (precise details TBA) and just generally kick back for a bit. This is not a cry for help, not like this was.

Additionally, there may be other things going on with other duders both this weekend and next, so stay tuned for deets.

http://welcometotwinpeaks.com/inspiration/black-lodge-twin-peaks-game/

Soppy Spoilers

Look, I'm sorry, okay? I just think this is some dank ass prose poetry.

Your children are not your children.

They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.

They come through you but not from you,

And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,

For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls,

For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,

which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them,

but seek not to make them like you.

For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children

as living arrows are sent forth.

The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,

and He bends you with His might

that His arrows may go swift and far.

Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;

For even as He loves the arrow that flies,

so He loves also the bow that is stable.

- The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran. Published in 1923.

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22 Comments
22 Comments
Posted by development

I may have asked you this before, but is your avatar pic Peter Greene's character from "The Mask?" If not, it's uncanny.

Also, nice heartfelt post. Also, Google+ told me it's your birthday, so: happy birthday!

Posted by Winternet

Well said, duder. <>

Posted by Winternet

Also, Happy Birthday, apparently ;)

Posted by TruthTellah

Thanks for the heartfelt video, Fattony. The salute at the end was beautiful.

(and that shirt looks fine on you!)

Edited by thatdutchguy

You're doing god's work, son !

Happy birthday.

Edited by Fattony12000

I may have asked you this before, but is your avatar pic Peter Greene's character from "The Mask?" If not, it's uncanny.

Also, nice heartfelt post. Also, Google+ told me it's your birthday, so: happy birthday!

I can't recall if you've ever asked me that before, to my knowledge only @snide has ever paid enough attention to me to bother asking that question. My apologies to you if I'm not remembering your asking that selfsame question.

In all actuality it's a crop I made of a portrait of Max Oppenheimer, as painted in watercolours by Egon Schiele in 1910. Yeah, I'm keeping this web shit fresh since day. Whilst we're all here and sharing the very deepest of secrets about our avatars, here's A Brief History of Mine:

The 2nd of October, 2006

I bought the mighty Xbox Live Vision camera, primarily for use with Uno and Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six: Vegas, but also for the purposes of taking a sick snap of a real world object for use as my Gamerpic (that was/is the shitty term for them, wasn't it?). I will provide a high quality 1080p screencap of the aforementioned Gamerpic®™© later this very day.

The somethingth of June, 2010

My first post upon the boards of Giant Bomb dot com, an act which heralded the introduction of a never-before-seen image for use as my digital webitar:

rage.png

Some time last year? 2012?

The hottest and latest revision of my avatar, details of which you can read up above, right there in that first bit. Yeah, there. Even though you're down here reading this right now, there's pretty much nothing for you here. So. Yeah.

Lies

Also, it's so totally not my birthday in any way shape or form, I haven't used my real deets on webzones since the 90s. I do, however, thank you for your consideration and kind words about my blog.

Ta much.

Posted by Fattony12000
@development said:

I may have asked you this before, but is your avatar pic Peter Greene's character from "The Mask?" If not, it's uncanny.

Also, nice heartfelt post. Also, Google+ told me it's your birthday, so: happy birthday!

The 2nd of October, 2006

I bought the mighty Xbox Live Vision camera, primarily for use with Uno and Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six: Vegas, but also for the purposes of taking a sick snap of a real world object for use as my Gamerpic (that was/is the shitty term for them, wasn't it?). I will provide a high quality 1080p screencap of the aforementioned Gamerpic®™© later this very day.

I'm a man of my word, or at the very least, a man of some singular choice from an array of select words:

That is a digital photo (taken with the Vision camera) of a framed picture I used to own of, well, you probably know the film.

Posted by Zero_

Wait... Ryan reviewed Spy Hunter? Wasn't it Brad, who Brad and Ryan only discovered in the DP ER?

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@winternet said:

Well said, duder. <>

Thank you, duder.

@winternet said:

Also, Happy Birthday, apparently ;)

Yeah, about that...

@truthtellah said:

Thanks for the heartfelt video, Fattony. The salute at the end was beautiful.

(and that shirt looks fine on you!)

Heh, I thought it was only right to try and get as many Giant Bomb/Ryan Davisy-type references into the video as possible!

x

Posted by Fattony12000

You're doing god's work, son !

Happy birthday.

No gods or kings. Only Ryan.

I thank you for your kind words. And yeeeeeah...about that birthday thing.

@zero_ said:

Wait... Ryan reviewed Spy Hunter? Wasn't it Brad, who Brad and Ryan only discovered in the DP ER?

Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, what?

/goes into research mode

Edited by Zero_

@fattony12000: I'm pretty sure there's one episode of DP BR ER (...hehe) where Ryan looks up Swery's past games and Spy Hunter comes up, and Brad goes "Wait... why does that sound familiar?". Ryan goes off Googling and find's Brad review on Gamepot. Which is weird, because http://www.gamespot.com/spy-hunter/reviews/spy-hunter-review-6074511/ is clearly written by Ryan. Maybe I'm mixing up some events... damnit.

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Edited by Flappy

@zero_ said:

@fattony12000: I'm pretty sure there's one episode of DP BR ER (...hehe) where Ryan looks up Swery's past games and Spy Hunter comes up, and Brad goes "Wait... why does that sound familiar?". Ryan goes off Googling and find's Brad review on Gamepot. Which is weird, because http://www.gamespot.com/spy-hunter/reviews/spy-hunter-review-6074511/ is clearly written by Ryan. Maybe I'm mixing up some events... damnit.

You're thinking of Spy Fiction, duder.

EDIT: How rude of me to not comment on the original blog. *ahem*

Good job, homie.

Posted by Fattony12000
@flappy said:

@zero_ said:

@fattony12000: I'm pretty sure there's one episode of DP BR ER (...hehe) where Ryan looks up Swery's past games and Spy Hunter comes up, and Brad goes "Wait... why does that sound familiar?". Ryan goes off Googling and find's Brad review on Gamepot. Which is weird, because http://www.gamespot.com/spy-hunter/reviews/spy-hunter-review-6074511/ is clearly written by Ryan. Maybe I'm mixing up some events... damnit.

You're thinking of Spy Fiction, duder.

EDIT: How rude of me to not comment on the original blog. *ahem*

Good job, homie.

#SPYHUNTERSPYFICTIONCOLLUSION

And thanks for coming on down to this funky little blog and saying that I done a good job. Good job on that good job of telling me that I did a good job.

Posted by Little_Socrates

I missed this before. Thaaaaanks, Tony. (the twin peaks music is perfect)

Posted by Fattony12000

I missed this before. Thaaaaanks, Tony. (the twin peaks music is perfect)

Thank.

You.

For watching and reading this fine content.

Right here, on Giant Bomb dot com. Part of the fine CBSi family of fine products.

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I did want to do a little live shoutout/remembrance/memorial thing for Ryan on my Extra Life stream, but I was too scared :(

Sorry Ryan. I'll be more emotionally badass next time around.

Posted by Fattony12000

Version 1 alpha

http://steamcommunity.com/id/Fattony12000/myworkshopfiles (You gotta be ma Lovely Steam Friend to download it, for now.)

I still need to:

  1. Make a proper leader symbol for Ryan at the civ select screen.
  2. Not make Ryan part of the Celts civ.
  3. Try to add custom music/voiceover/sound to the intro screen when you start the game as Ryan.
  4. Write more/better text for the descriptions of the civ/mod/leader.
Posted by Turambar

I think being part of the Celts can work fine if you make the civ. bonus something utilikilt related.

Posted by Nightriff

Question, if/when I download this will it auto update when you add things like music and such?

Posted by Fattony12000
@turambar said:

I think being part of the Celts can work fine if you make the civ. bonus something utilikilt related.

Hah! Whilst that might be...fitting...in some way, my actual plan was to make that bit that currently says the Celts actually say whatever I call the collection of people who are part of Ryan's civilization. The Celts were just the one I copied to get the mod "working".

Question, if/when I download this will it auto update when you add things like music and such?

I am given to understand that custom music can indeed be included in the mod itself (I have seen multiple examples of this for Civ V). I just need to learn how to do it!

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Posted by Will_M

Saw this on GAF. Amazing.