Backlogs are a funny thing . i remember as a kid i always wanted more games and never felt like i didn't have time for them. When an open world/sandbox game would come out i was always ecstatic because that ment i could play it longer and run out of things to do less soon which when your a daughter to a single mother who had next to no friends because your gaming = taboo for females (not to mention being a heavier girl to boot) ...well i digress it was a awesome thing to have.
Fast forward time when i graduated HS i got married to a military man i met while playing FF11, sure playing a MMO made it so i slowly developed a small backlog but nothing too bad , money wasn't an issue much and games were still generally shorter and those longer ones were still a treat. When the ex deployed all i did was mope around the house and game for a yr ( i was a housewife for my 3 years of marriage as he made enough and i didn't drive), when we moved to germany even moreso because while previously we'd live on base n i had friends/neighbors i got to know that were cool suddenly we were in a country where English was not a first language and we lived off-base so there when conversations with ppl outside oof online and family ( pandemic training i joke about honestly considering i only got out to walk the dog and food shop twice a month)...needless to say plenty of time to game and the games being shorter took less time , this was 2008-2011/12
Fast forward to being a young divorcee (ex was a dog) who had to find a Job after moving back home with family i was 21 and times changed , i had to walk to work still not having learned to drive ( ex's empty promise of teaching) i was lucky to get a job close by but that still takes time away, i also had to sleep for work and working takes it out of you at times , so while there was still time to game it was mostly weekends , games were still a respectable length and the longer stuff was still far between so still nice here and there but i slowly became harder to find the time and juggle what you wanted to play.
Fast forward another few years , we're in 2019 ( because pre-pandemic life) i had every system i wanted and a good pc But i worked a usual 8.5 hour day in a factory that doesn't give 2 shits about you ( ya know pretty normal) having learned to drive at 23 because you have to if you want to find a decent job in NH , even still most jobs are between 5-30 mins away you've had years to have to flip flop jobs and while your current is closer (15) it added up over the last number of years cutting into your free time. you oddly got a social life at a job a few yrs before so you started drinking and going to parties with work buddies also cutting into your time, you found a SO who is good to you that you spend time with also once again adding something to eat more free time. If your lucky tho you can afford games you want and over the years bundles and sales have given you many. ...problem? you have less time ...also somehow those nice big games that were once a treat started to become the main course taking more time to beat while limiting time for other games long and short alike......who wont even mention podcasts you fell down the rabbit hole of once listening to cause you wanted game news to being something you started to ingest regularly at a job you no longed had ( one of 4 places you'd worked in said time gap) so while you Could play other things you seek games you can play And listen to stuff with. Tastes started to change and games with it , you got games you want to make time for cause you know you'd like them and no time to spare.
Current day...pandemic forces you at home , you can't wear a mask because of a neurological issue you had since you were 9 , lost your job and were a factory worker with no skillset for remote work and have been generally trapped inside for the past yr. you have a backlog of games that you've collected over your working life, your mostly broke and lucky you have a fiancee who loves you enough to not wipe his hands of you cause of the imbalance in workload. Family moved in to help make ends meet so your once comfy home (rental) is cramped with your mother who 'is always right' and also doesn't really love your partner or respect him and bashes him when she can , and your grandmother with dementia who while you love her is just a husk who needs to pass on ( sorry not sorry). Either way life is depressing , but you have Tons of time to game if you want and Tons of games to fill it with.......problem...too many games and still not enough time. what do you do? How do you pick what to play? ....sometimes you try things and they click , sometimes they don't , sometimes you just don't pick anything cause you spend hours trying to pick just what you want and its not actually anything you have. Games you know you'd always loved start to feel like a chore cause of their size and games you would have almost never picked years ago hit the mark more than expected.
This was an extremely long post , more than i expected to type (sorry?) if you read it all thanks a ton i guess. either way its a hard question to answer so i voted sometimes. my perspective changes on it depending on context and i hope the length helped answer why . these days i both love and hate my backlog , i have a bunch to play but more often idk what i want to play because i have too many options . others started that they only count games they bought as their 'true' backlog and thats the same for me . I've also learned to take things off my backlog if i just don't enjoy them which is something i wouldn't have done when younger. even with more time time is still limited and you can never get it back. i also keep a google doc for what i start playing ( for the past few yrs) its really helped my backlog shrink by crossing things off ( green) unfinished ( red) and dropped ( blue). when i start it it goes on the list and with a date , when i beat it that date gets put in and changing it green can feel good like a small weight lifted , sometimes you put something down and it stays red for years but once in a while if you pick it up after a while it might click and you beat it shortening your backlog. the choice paralysis can be strong so i get it all too well sometimes i wish i didn't have a backlog of what feels like guilt ( 993 in my steam library how? -grumbles in bundles- ) but at the same time at least i have something to choose which a young me could only dream of and there Has to be something fun in that.
TLDR: please see last section at the least. ^
example of running backlog see link, i've carried the red over every yr removing the beaten and dropped entries from the new yr to keep it 'clean'.
also sorry for randomly switching from saying I to you randomly when i was clearly taking about personal circumstances ..very weird i know and idk why that ended up happening but here we are.
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1DOJJy03ssI6SPewRhZXQ9ev3y30fQxA0fQVrYhItWwg/edit?usp=sharing
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