outlawed

When I was very young, I lost all of my grandparents, but I didn't feel the extent of those emotions at that time, nor will I ever. I just didn't have a big emotional bond with them because I was so young.

2008 was the debut of the Arrow Pointing Down podcasts, which eventually became the Giant Bombcast. I've listened ever since, and I know I'll listen far into the future. Ryan was apart of something so special in my life at an important time for me. The bombcast was more than just a hobby podcast with knowledgeable hosts, it was like hanging out with a different group of friends than my usual circle. Filled with our own in-jokes and discussions that I never knew how important they were to me until Ryan's passing brought it into perspective.

I've gone through a very tough year since his passing, but it gets better every day. He was the first person in my life that passed away with me being older than 8. It hit me hard. That whole week I was a bit of a mess, but that's because he had such a profound, positive impact on my life. My wife at the time was unsure of how to console me, and I think she didn't quite understand how important he was in my life. I would spend at -least- 2-3 hours with him and the crew a week through the podcast, but so much more through the videos, livestreams, quicklooks, posts, tweets, you name it. Ryan was a true friend, even if we never met.

My wife and I have since divorced, and it has been a really hard time on me. Lots of things have changed around in my life, but I'm working through them. The bombcast was with me through the past 6 years and always helped me through tough times, this year included.

Like many here, I will never forget you Ryan. You were an amazing man to have spent so much of my time with, and I miss the heck out of you. We're all lucky that so much of your great personality is alive and well on film. Keep being you, wherever you are.