For me, it started when I got home from a 12 hour day and saw someone with a #Ryan Davis tag on their Dota account.
I grabbed a few beers, played a game.. and then went to Reddit (I don't check GB on Mondays - I know there's no reason to, I don't care, but it's true). I see RIP Ryan Davis. Cue literal disbelief. I read the post, and my first response is "wow, okay." I then read some comments, and very suddenly it hits me just how much of a part of my life he is. I know it's sad, but it's true; I love this site, and Ryan is one of the main reasons. I bitched a few times about him, basically about him not making content, but wow... how stupid is that? Hindsight is 20/20, but I feel like such a dick.
I hope the rest of Giant Bomb - all of the crew, and all of the members - can mourn and remember this man in a positive way. He absolutely should not be gone, but I hope more than anything that he left in the most peaceful way possible. I hope his wife can find some sort of solace in the wake of this and its timing. I hope Jeff doesn't hate all of us for coming out like this when we weren't saying shit like this when we thought Ryan would be around forever - honestly, isn't that how we felt? I hope all of Ryan's close friends can find peace with this, and I really hope they don't take offense to the strangers' feelings.
I love you all, and I love the Giant Bomb crew. I love Ryan and will honestly never forget him because of the insanely large role he played in my life - it wasn't a public part, but it was a part that made me smile, laugh, growl, groan, rage, and laugh again. It was a part that brought me up when I was down, and I'm sorry I couldn't return the favor. Ryan Davis is missed, but he will always be remembered.
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