Who knew that for a dude that I never met I'd feel this much sadness and shed these much tears. I ... just fuck. fuck fuck fuck.

It's been a decade of following him and a.... fuck. Whatever I may be feelin right now, isn't even close to what the duders, family and friends are feeling. I... I'm so sorry for them. fucking why? WHY?!

I just wan... fuck. fuck fuck fuck fck fuck. I can't....

I'm sorry, I shouldnt even be post this, but.... i feel so bad right now. fuck.

god whyh