To be honest, I get it because it takes me a long time to reduce my Asshole Meter (tm) down to the point where it reaches "Yeah, you're alright." With people I already know, like brothers and whatnot, I'm a goddamn fool and a corny, bad-joke loving idiot and having a grand old time. But man, trying to "party" just annoys me, and I can't stand being in groups like that.
Another problem is that I am extremely bored by standard conversational fare, such as the weather, any and all sports, romance bullshit, 99% of TV. And that's what most people want to talk about, it seems.Tell me about your hobbies, interests, places you visited outside of the country you live in, and I'm all ears all day. I swear I'll hound you with questions out of a natural interest. Unless you're creepy, then the aforementioned Asshole Meter (tm) starts screaming at me to leave you the eff alone.
Unfortunately my real social anxiety and my absolute hatred of dumbasses, liars, narcissists, and creeps combines to make me want to stay home pretty much all the time.
As has been said already, it's good to have someone you really trust, who won't spill your secrets all over the place with others, to chat about these problems. Doesn't have to be a professional, in my opinion, just someone who has your back for real. For real.
Edit: To explain further, some of it really has to do my tendency to show way too much sympathy and empathy for people, which is a giant mistake when those people have their own problems that will lead them to mistreating you. "You can't help everybody" as they say. I decided recently to continue showing sympathy and empathy, that's who I am, but to make sure to stay away from the people that will abuse it. And to be incredibly honest about everything, to myself and those closest to me, even if it means being a little brutal. I dunno, that's how I'm solving my anxieties for myself for now.
I'll have to read the rest of this thread later on, though. It looks like I definitely have some brothers and sisters with similar problems dealing with others.
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