I decided to get myself a month (for now) here :) Ive always kinda watched GB but never subbed because of just how ive been money wise. I have health issues that make working hard and so money is short but i decided to do it this time. Im not sure if anyone would read this simply because im just enjoying the site in general but there you go i guess.

Of late, i just started a sort of 4 player group for Borderlands 2. I have always ALWAYS loved loot games and how enjoyable they can be on a personal level. Something i have always just wanted to sit down and run for hours in. The "+1DPS" rule hits me kinda hard in games, not in a "im stronger" way but "im one step higher in my personal ladder*. When you have 4 friends, to me its better. You get that D&D moments when you open a chest and go "oooh" as it unfolds, items waiting for the lootin'. I do enjoy that and as someone who can't just get a group to play D&D anymore, this is as close as i can get. I would love a hack/slash style of game for 4 players and such but gaming doesn't provide so much on this. What i do love though is that it reminds me of why gaming with friends is important and why i think maybe gaming right now suffers from a personal issue of "What is mine".

Borderlands has a very big player base and a lot of them are complaining about the fact loot is shared in the world. If i see a gun, you see it too. People want only what is theirs and don't want to share unless its under their rules and i kinda hate that. When i open a chest in Torchlight 2, it explodes with gold and weapons for me to pick up but i don't care about it so much if its just me picking it up. Needing to go "Oh, i got this, anyone want it" feels like im getting more busy work rather then us all looking at a chest and going "Hmm, anyone want?". If you have a good group of friends, you all fall into place with this kinda stuff and it never feels spiteful to grab up a shotgun or battleaxe simply because people know and trust you to do so. Gamers now are so grabby with what they want that i feel it is now a act of trust just to play online with people and i HATE that feeling. I trust easily. Yes, im that kinda of girl. I like to know that people are happy and il do things for that. I don't like needing to push for fairness but now we are at the point we need to. Most people who play games in this generation haven't grown up with that trust element in games and i feel like its wasting time now to want to go outside my group of friends which feels like i have to cut myself off to just get the right way to play. Maybe it's growing pains with these types of games now being much more back in the limelight. I hope so. I want my party to once again all see a longsword and not have to fight over a warrior getting it over a hunter.