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"The End"

Hi again.

Lately I’ve been having a lot of thoughts about Giant Bomb. Not about anyone in particular, but about the community as a whole. Here are my thoughts.

Community

What a fascinating social study Giant Bomb would make. Though some of us would rather believe that we are all disconnected from each other (and at times I can certainly see why), the truth is that we are more than anonymous users typing anonymous things into anonymous little boxes (unless we’ve actually become 4chan. Then god help us all). The truth is we are a community in every sense of the word; we bicker, fight, joke and laugh about things that are important to us both individually and collectively. We make friends and enemies, and the lines between both seem to blur the more we get to know one another. In fact, we’re so much a community I can already almost feel those cynical, world-weary fingertips trudging across your keyboard, primed and ready to tell me how wrong I am.
 
Now most often on Giant Bomb, when community is brought up, it’s in a negative light (or at least a would-be constructive one). Usually it gets brought up because we’re all being a bunch of jack-offs and someone feels the need to call us back into line. Usually those threads devolve into people slinging mud at one another, never wanting to admit they (le gasp!) might be in the wrong, so I’m not here to say or do any of those things. I think every part of Giant Bomb’s community is, for better or worse, essential to its survival. From the trolls to the old hands to the fanboys to the newbies to the bloggers to that guy who hates everything and everyone for no particular reason. Everyone has a place. I’m not here to tell you that the way you Giant Bomb is wrong, because there just ain’t no “right” way, baby.
 
However, if there was one thing I could leave you with in this section, it’s this: don’t lock the doors. In my year and change of activity on Giant Bomb I have seen a disturbing trend of clique-ism that is becoming more and more pronounced (although it wasn’t ever particularly subtle to begin with) amongst the “veteran” user base. I shan’t name any names and I hope no one takes this personally, because that’s not the point. The point is that it’s ultimately detrimental to everyone if we retreat to our ivory towers and scowl at the plebeians milling about below. Fresh blood should be welcomed, and if you honestly can find no other reason in your heart to do so, then at least take comfort in knowing that by your actions, you are promoting the continued existence of the Bomb. And if one of those newbloods ends up doing something cool, celebrate it. Let them know! It doesn’t make you less of a man/woman/forum-goer, and it will encourage the creation of worthwhile material instead of cheap gags to get a quick laugh.

Give a Little, Get a Little

This bit’s more for the moderators. First, you all do a daunting and thankless job. Without you, this forum would have collapsed under its collective weight long ago.
 
However.
 
We need to talk about this quest thing. Namely we need to talk about the blogs that are still clogging the forums. We need to talk about the fact that in spite of the continued efforts of myself and many other regulars to flag them, these threads remain open for far too long, often taking hours to sink (unlocked!) to the bottom of the forums. The most common excuse thrown around is that you’re “too busy” to respond to every thread. Aren’t you forum mods? Shouldn’t your primary concern be the forums, regardless of whatever other task you’re no doubt saddled with? Didn’t you just recruit two more mods? Essentially, the regulars are moderating the forums for you, and it’s creating friction amongst them. Why? Because it’s unclear as to what should receive a reprimand and what shouldn’t. Should you post a clearer version of the forum guidelines so that we can understand and enforce them better?
 
No.
 
Because we are not the mods. You are. So here’s the bottom line:
 
If you are a forum mod, moderate the forums. If you think you can’t find enough time to collectively respond to every spam thread, then find someone who can and give up your spot. It is not the community’s responsibility to clean up quest spam, and its sucking morale faster than a six-dollar hooker.
 
As I said before, moderating is a daunting and thankless task. Naturally, not everyone is up for this task. If you’re not then you’re not and you need to find someone who is. Whew! Now that that unfortunately nasty bit of business is out of the way, let’s move on.

You Rock. Yes You.

Specifically you. As you’re reading this, you are actively rocking. Why? Because you’re a part of this great, big, beautiful mess. Whether you’re staff, mod, blogger, troll, wiki slave, forum-goer, lurker or anything else you’d like to add to that list, you’re helping make Giant Bomb possible, and for that you have my personal thanks (for whatever its worth to ya'). In the year and change I’ve been here I’ve seen the forums grow and shrink, soar and self-destruct, praise and abhor. I’ve made both friends and enemies, and to both I am grateful for whatever wisdom they may have bestowed upon me. Now I never wanted to make this post overly sentimental or too self-indulgent, so I apologize if all of this seems rather abrupt. I won’t give much by way of explanation for what comes next, because I don’t think you guys need another one of those. The next bit, a quote from one of my favorite literary characters, sums up both how I feel and what I need to say, after which I suppose I’ll wait for the flights of coolstorybro.jpgs to sing this blog to its rest.
 
Alas, a year is far too short a time to live amongst such excellent and admirable forum-goers. I don’t know half of you as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.
 
I regret to announce that this is THE END.
 
I am going now. I bid you all a very fond farewell.
 
-End_Boss.

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@Gabriel: Thank you, that's what I came in here to do.
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@Avaloner:
Maybe, but reading "Edited 6 months, 3 weeks ago" under a post takes probably a little bit more than a wink, so stop making lame-ass excuses about reviving a dead thread made by a guy who managed to endure his exile for about a month.
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@Ghostiet:  I did not say I am a fan. I said this is the only guy I follow. I read his stuff when I got nothing to do, which is not very often. Gaming is time consuming you know.
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@Ghostiet said:
" @Avaloner said:
" Posts like this are the reason why you are the only person I follow on GB. So sorry to hear you are moving on. Good luck! "
You're a great fucking fan, since he wrote this SIX MONTHS ago. "
I know! I was all like" Hey nice blog.. aw this guy's leaving?" And then I noticed the date.
 
oh and he's back btw. -_-
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Aw, I thought this thread was gonna be about LOST, not Bilbo Baggins!
 
Anyway, no one cares, chap.

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@Avaloner said:
" Posts like this are the reason why you are the only person I follow on GB. So sorry to hear you are moving on. Good luck! "
You're a great fucking fan, since he wrote this SIX MONTHS ago.
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Posts like this are the reason why you are the only person I follow on GB. So sorry to hear you are moving on. Good luck!

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Sorry to see you go.  You were welcoming to me with my first misguided Quest cum Blog post and I appreciated it and your style and your willingness to be nice to a newbie.  You also have a decent amount of insight into the industry so I hope you find another community and ability to sync with them and continue to blog your thoughts.

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So sorry to hear that you are leaving End_Boss. I do want you to reconsider your decision, because Giantbomb is still a good website. If it comes to the fact that you don't come back, I give you best of wishes and a goodbye.

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This entire thread is pathetic. For a guy who takes his writing 'seriously' I can't even recall any of your posts and you never stood out to me ever! So maybe you should start taking something else more seriously as your writing isn't good.
 
And who 'leaves' a website forever?! How lame! What, you can't put 'giantbomb.com' into your web browser ever again? Sure, so tragic....

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@TheLegendofLuke said:
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I'M A DINOSAUR! "
prove it.
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@Pie said:
" @KaosAngel: I love you KaosAngel! Whats going on in this thread then? "
I dunno, but when BoG had his goodbye post...it was very somber.  Why is End_Boss not getting the same salute?  :(
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@KaosAngel: I love you KaosAngel! Whats going on in this thread then?
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Blog should have been named "Game Over". It would've made me chuckle.
 
Good luck in the future!

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Also I, like so many, thought this was about MGS 3.  
 
Or my first thought was the final episode of Lost which is called The End.
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@MB:
Good man!
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Hey wait, I can spam! Pick me, pick me!

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I know you might never see this, but I just wanna say thank you for being here on Giant Bomb.  I promise people won't forget you, and you have truely helped the site grow in the first year and half...but I do hope you come back one day.  
 
 一期一会。 さよならエンヅボオス。

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@MarkWahlberg said:
" Say hi to your mother for me. *he types with cynical and world-weary fingers* "
Rove live. McManus  
I didn't know you were Aussie,  
 
EndBoss, If you read this, good luck to you man, 
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This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again
 
Is all I have to say. Enjoy yourself wherever you are going and you are welcome to come back (with a bit of a reputation).

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@AlwaysAngry said:
" @MB said:
" @Sweep: Lads is an awesome word...so is bollocks. I'm going to work on getting those used more often in the US. "
From experience, Brits hate it when you use "their" words. "
We don't mind when you use our words, it's the way you say it. Watching an american try and force British words into daily speech is just painful. Especialy when you try an accent, it sounds like someone repeatedly punching the Artful Dodger.
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My dick is so hard right now.

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@Gabriel: Yeah I thought the same thing. Instead it just turned out to be some rambling blog about GiantBomb. I totally forgot what I was reading about halfway through, but finished anyway.
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Say hi to your mother for me. *he types with cynical and world-weary fingers*

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Farewell

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Dammit. I read that whole thing, agreeing with everything you said, then Bam!, you're leaving? I would have just posted this:

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TL;DR

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@dancinginfernal: totally not going for that, but I laughed a bit.
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@TurboMan said:
" I'm sorry to see you go It's somehow as beautiful as the first snow I will miss touching your beautiful face your memories are forever, and cannot be erased. "
So says Mr. Stewart...? Sorry.  
 
OT: Hate to see someone leave Giant Bomb. We'll miss you.
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@MB said:
" @Sweep: Lads is an awesome word...so is bollocks. I'm going to work on getting those used more often in the US. "
From experience, Brits hate it when you use "their" words.
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Hey this isn't about the final episode of Lost at all. Oh well where are you going?

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You shall be missed.

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End_Boss, where are you going!?

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I'm sorry to see you go 
It's somehow as beautiful as the first snow 
I will miss touching your beautiful face 
your memories are forever, and cannot be erased. 
 
R.I.P.

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Suicide note. I'm calling it.

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@Tarsier: When BoG did it, it was for good...this is one of those post.  :(
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You inspired me to take up my job in Japan a year ago....and the main reason I started to give away stuff last year for Golden Week.  :( This place has gotten so bad lately, I end up spending more time other places...like 2channel, or more recently Team Liquid.   You were a good guy, or should I say you still are.  Wherever you go to next, they will be glad to have you.  
 
The next live stream we do of SC2, and EVERY replay ArtOfWar and myself upload shortly will be dedicated to you.  Already got the graphics setup, and it will be a fitting end.   
 
gg
 
EDIT:  When BoG left I cried...I will cry again.  :(

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Why would you leave a website? I can understand if you were staff, or KaosAngel (Streets would be live), but just a normal person seems a bit..dramatic. Like those people who leave and come back a week after, with a new blog!

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I understand when someone leaves with melodrama that their is an adverse reaction, but this all seemed nicely put and constructively as well.  Good luck End Boss in all your endeavours.

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 @Sweep: I figured you'd probably be the first to misinterpret this, as I'm sure many others have. Let me just clear this one thing up for you.

 I'm not leaving because I'm "mad" at anyone and I’m not moving on to some other site (wherever did you get that idea?). As I said in my post, I am grateful to the community, mods and staff. What you just read is simply my (hopefully constructive) take on the site on my way out.

I'm moving on because I feel like, for better or worse, GB has given me what it's going to give me as a writer, not to mention my going through some very uncertain times in my personal life right now. Look, I understand that part of your whole "thing" is to not take this seriously, but as I've said to you elsewhere before, I do take this writing thing pretty seriously, and I take the people who read this stuff pretty seriously as well. You can call me a ridiculous tit all you want, but that won't change.
 
@MB:@CitizenKane:  Oh I get it! Because my guesstimated dates don't exactly add up you're having a clever little exchange about it so you can continue to be passive aggressive without speaking your mind! Awesome. Glad to see you fellas took what was important out of the post.

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@arab_prince said:

" @Sweep said:

" Ok i'm not going to be a complete dick, or at the very least I should rationalise my dickishness. 
 
I don't really understand why people feel the need to officially "arrive" and "leave" a website. It's just a fucking website. I think the whole concept of anchoring yourself to a specific site is fucking stupid because it's unreasonable to expect it to cater to all your needs. It's not like you have a commitment to post or even get actively involved, and it's not like you can't use other sources of the internet if you feel that one is inadequate. If the forums aren't up to scratch then join neogaf, that doesn't mean you can't continue to flirt with the staff editorial content or read user reviews. This is not an all or nothing scenario, so stop treating it like one. Whatever, I hate these bullshit melodramatic farewells. Say hi to Endogene for me. "
I understand what you are saying. But I think the OP stated how he feels the site is part of a "community". Think about living in a community with a nice neighbourhood and what not. Once you move, you are out. You aren't coming back to the community. I think thats how the OP feels about the site. I'm sure everyone can understand your view, but I guess not everyone shares it. "
I totally get this. But, to extend your metaphor, it's not really true is it. Because you aren't living elsewhere and you can still return whenever you want. You might not be up to date on the latest gossip but you aren't going to be completely shunned either.

 

End_Boss Said:

 "However, if there was one thing I could leave you with in this section, it’s this: don’t lock the doors. In my year and change of activity on Giant Bomb I have seen a disturbing trend of clique-ism that is becoming more and more pronounced (although it wasn’t ever particularly subtle to begin with) amongst the “veteran” user base. I shan’t name any names and I hope no one takes this personally, because that’s not the point. The point is that it’s ultimately detrimental to everyone if we retreat to our ivory towers and scowl at the plebeians milling about below. Fresh blood should be welcomed, and if you honestly can find no other reason in your heart to do so, then at least take comfort in knowing that by your actions, you are promoting the continued existence of the Bomb "

 
 Expecting any other site to be different is naive. With all the anonymous people like to imagine that things like post counts and wiki points are somehow important. Well to some people they are. That doesn't mean they have to be to you. Stop treating the users of giantbomb like some whole entity, we are a site of individuals. There will be fuckers everywhere, on the internet and in the real world, with obscure notions of self-importance but that mentality doesn't extend over everyone.
 
I think part of your beef has been misdirected at the community when it's not the communities fault. If it were easier to navigate community content *Meaningful glance at Snide* then perhaps people would appear more receptive.
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@Sweep said:
" Ok i'm not going to be a complete dick, or at the very least I should rationalise my dickishness. 
 
I don't really understand why people feel the need to officially "arrive" and "leave" a website. It's just a fucking website. I think the whole concept of anchoring yourself to a specific site is fucking stupid because it's unreasonable to expect it to cater to all your needs. It's not like you have a commitment to post or even get actively involved, and it's not like you can't use other sources of the internet if you feel that one is inadequate. If the forums aren't up to scratch then join neogaf, that doesn't mean you can't continue to flirt with the staff editorial content or read user reviews. This is not an all or nothing scenario, so stop treating it like one. Whatever, I hate these bullshit melodramatic farewells. Say hi to Endogene for me. "
I understand what you are saying. But I think the OP stated how he feels the site is part of a "community". Think about living in a community with a nice neighbourhood and what not. Once you move, you are out. You aren't coming back to the community. I think thats how the OP feels about the site. I'm sure everyone can understand your view, but I guess not everyone shares it.
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@MB said:
" @Sweep: Lads is an awesome word...so is bollocks. I'm going to work on getting those used more often in the US. "
I've been trying this for years.  It has had some success, but not nearly enough...
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@Sweep: Lads is an awesome word...so is bollocks. I'm going to work on getting those used more often in the US.
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@MB said:
" @Sweep said:
" cool story, bro. "
That was a brilliant troll."
Thank you. Me and the lads discussed it over a period of weeks and we felt it best summarised our feelings in the context of this thread.
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@CitizenKane: Wow...I feel dumb for not knowing that. Thanks for the pro tip, rosebud =P
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I bet this thread was just to get points for the quest.

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Ok i'm not going to be a complete dick, or at the very least I should rationalise my dickishness. 
 
I don't really understand why people feel the need to officially "arrive" and "leave" a website. It's just a fucking website. I think the whole concept of anchoring yourself to a specific site is fucking stupid because it's unreasonable to expect it to cater to all your needs. It's not like you have a commitment to post or even get actively involved, and it's not like you can't use other sources of the internet if you feel that one is inadequate. If the forums aren't up to scratch then join neogaf, that doesn't mean you can't continue to flirt with the staff editorial content or read user reviews. This is not an all or nothing scenario, so stop treating it like one.
 
Whatever, I hate these bullshit melodramatic farewells. Say hi to Endogene for me.