So I just started community college a couple of days ago and have come to the conclusion that I don't even know if I should be there. I only really am going because my high school kept saying that you should go to college after you're done with high school, so I signed up to do the basics. I still have no clue what I actually should do with my life and wonder if maybe this was a mistake. It doesn't help any that I'm scared about the possibility of failing and the money and time would all just be a waste. I wish I knew what the hell to do. I think I might go through this semester no matter what grades I get, but after that I don't know if I'll go back for another semester. I keep hearing about other people at the school through over heard conversations saying they know exactly what they want to do and wish I was like them.
Let’s say you drink too much strawberry milk, and have to use the bathroom in the middle of the night. But it’s cold outside your bed. You don’t want to get up, but the urge to urinate is just too strong! You make up your mind to go! You run to the bathroom, stand in front of the toilet, and let loose! You think that all your life has led to this moment! But then you realize! It isn’t the bathroom! You’re still in bed! That feeling of lukewarm wetness spreads like wildfire !But you don’t stop! You can’t stop! That’s what I’m talking about! That’s the truth of the strawberry milk! Do you get it?!"
Not much happened. I apologized to her for being a bit pushy about trying to get her to go with me after she told me about her friend and I should have been more considerate about her plans with said friend. The way I figure it is if that friend isn't real then she'll tell me herself if she feels the need to I won't force her to. It was kind of an uncomfortable atmosphere for the middle part of class after that since I didn't really know what to do after that and she didn't seem to be in a great mood. I tried asking about it at one point, but she didn't want to talk about it. I also said that it wasn't good to bottle things up like that and she said that's the type of person she is. I told her that I would finish the assignment we were given at home and told her to try and have a better day. I think that's about all that happened.