Ryan's passing was strangely shocking to me. The impact that Ryan had been a part of my daily routine for several years through podcasts, videos and other content was the most apparent when I went to the site on Monday to see that he had passed away.

Shocked, is really the worst way to describe it. I was gutted. To feel this upset about a person I'd never met, I was conflicted. But Ryan was someone who shared their life, not only because of their job, but through his own actions - people who followed him through his own journey. We may never have met, but I had exchanged some Twitter replies with Ryan and he was always cool about it. I imagine like many of the GiantBomb hosts, he had a fair share of nonsense emailed/pm'd/tweeted at him daily, it was nice to see someone who I enjoyed listening to so much respond to my 140 characters.

His candid insight into just about ANYTHING was always interesting and he was legitimately the host of hosts when it came to all the E3 Bombcasts. His ability to shift between games, comics, movies and more showed his versatility in the role. His ability to lighten the mood even while cutting through someone with verbal barbs was always a treat, as he wasn't breaking them down, but it was purely a sign that he was letting them know he was paying attention and cared.

I didn't really have anyone to talk to about this. Most of my close friends rely on me to be the "game news" guy who visits game sites regularly. I ran into another GB user at work of all places, also wearing a GB Tshirt. We stopped and just fist bumped, and shared a brief chat about how awful its been the last few days. Even for the few minutes we reminisced about the great Ryan content on the front page, it was key that we both reflected on how much we'll miss his input.

I'm honestly worried about listening to the newest Bombcast. I know the crew will do their best, but this is hardly a closing chapter for any of us, I feel. My thoughts are with all the crew, Anna and Ryan's family - and the rest of us. Users who feel like a part of a legit community, no matter if we're forum goers, chat trolls or even just subscribed to the Bombcast - maybe all of us can learn from Ryan to love life and put focus into the things that matter like family and friends and fucking laughter.