LegendaryChopChop

Yeah. Truly. It still feels like some sick joke. Never thought something like this could happen.

I want them to do it if they want to record it.

Personally, I would like 3 hours of a Ryan memorial show. Tears, laughs, and all. Whether it's this week or next week, or whenever: we need it for closure.

Obviously we will, but it'll be a while (few days?) before I'm in a state to fully embrace a game. I know Ryan would hate that, but, hey, you're too damn special buddy.

Hmmm... I like the general idea of it. I feel like the opening should have some sort of Ryanism in it, because he was the host since its inception.

True, it would make us bawl. But in a year's time, maybe more, maybe less: an idea like this would be kind of neat.

I wonder if Ryan ever gave Jeff the new Bombcast theme.

I will only buy if it supports his family or this company. And only if those involved with him approve.

Otherwise, one day out from a death I will not put money in the hands of another trying to capitalize on him.

Living in the way we do is truly a blessing in what we have, what we take for granted. It just sucks we don't even realize what we have until it's all gone.

Luckily I have avoided much in the way of deaths from people I know, but this passing comes to me where I know now for sure to never take what I have for granted. The people in our lives mean too much to do that. It could be gone at any moment.

It is a bit surreal seeing some posts by the guys after the third, they seemed so... normal. I know it's just tweets and the like, but based on Brad's tweets after they broke the news, it was staggering and a little confusing how they kept it all in. I sure couldn't wait that long to tell a legion of fans about what happened to my best friend.

Still, I don't blame them. I just feel so awful about his wife and parents... What a travesty.

Each other. Our friends. Our family.

I have been affected by this all damn day, and even into the new dawn. It hurts, it sucks, and I can't even muster the ability to realize that it's actually true.

In fact, in doing so, I actually found myself refuting the attention of my friends and family who wished to talk or spend time with me. In my sulking, I've realized that this is the opposite of what should be done.

There is time for grieving — we are all doing that now — but I have realized that Ryan's sudden death needs to make us fully embrace what is close to us in our lives. Friends, family, spouses, whatever. These people keep us living our lives the way we do and why we need to live them further.

For those of you grieving and watching some classic Ryan moments, I wish I could watch some, but I just can't. It's too damn early. Still feels... too soon. But, I full damn will, the way he would have wanted us to remember him. There's no arguing that.

I was numb for most of the day. Got some drinks in honor of him, sent my regards to those who are most hurt, and just chatted with my friends.

Ryan, wherever you are, however you may be there, we are all effected by your loss and will continue to persist your legacy with Giant Bomb. I'm worried with all the recent changes, and now his demise, but, if anything we can help it continue as it was.

Dunno man, Zodiac Motherfucker was a Ryan thing.