Brown recluses are pretty bad actually. I think it really depends on the look of it, sometimes I don't mind, and other times my heart stops beating (not literally), but I get shocked so bad and I do one deep inhale then get the fuck out. I'm not really scared of a lot, but like Indiana Jones (or that's how I like to think of it to make myself not seem like a woose), I hate spiders as he does snakes.
Spiders, why did it have to be spiders? It doesn't even matter if it's dead or not, one time I had to go under my house, and crawling under there, I have no idea what's under it, so the small crawl space, on top where my back would be, there are dead spiders curled up in a ball in spider webs, and when I went in there last, I could hardly breath. There are just so many spiders that I can't tell if they'd harm me or not.
Ironically, I rarely like to see someone kill them. I mean, if it's outside, I won't want it dead, but if it's something I've never seen before, like a few nights ago, a little brown hairy looking one, I'll want it dead. Even then, just after, I thought "Man, that spider was probably more scared of me than I was of it, and we killed it. I feel bad now." Also, just seeing a spider can make me feel like I have it on my body or hair.
It's one of the worst things to look up on Google, really. It's a good idea to study them actually, which I have done in the past. It's nasty. Fuck, I just looked at some spiders on Google, gosh damn! Spiders are also some of the worst things to imagine, like what if I were to pour something to drink, or leave my room, and come back and not knowing it, I pick the cup up and put the thing close to my face, look down with my eyes and a spider's in it. Or sitting on the toilet, and a spider's under the lid.
I guess I would say I have slight arachnophobia and I don't like deep water. Once, I've been in a lake on a small boat and it was deep, but there were huge trees sticking out of it, that's creepy as hell to me. I'm still very interested in seeing stuff that has to do with deep water though, like viewing images or video of the Titanic, although I don't think I could personally do what James Cameron did recently by going down to the Mariana trench, or go down and see the Titanic.
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